“Am I not enough?” The words seem to ring in my ears even though I was not actually hearing them with my ears, but with my heart. The thought echoed in my mind.
“Of course you are,” I replied out loud to no one physically present in my room. But I knew I was speaking to the Lord.
“Of course you are but…but..” My words trailed off as I thought about the unanswered prayers, the desires in my heart, the many difficult circumstances and the hurdles that seem to never stop overwhelming me.
Of course I believe he is enough, but do I believe it enough to live like he is enough? Do I believe it during the storm?
I thought about Abraham.
God had promised that he would be the father of many nations. And then, He asked Abraham to sacrifice that promise, his son. What? Here was God asking Abraham to sacrifice the promise that he had given him.
Perhaps God was asking him, “Abraham, am I not enough?”
Of course Abraham was stopped short of sacrificing his son. He totally trusted that the Lord knew what he was talking about. Abraham eventually did become the father of many nations through his son, as God had promised.
What about Joseph?
He was a young boy who had wild dreams from the Lord. He was favored by his earthly father and favored by his heavenly father. And yet he found himself in prison for a crime he never committed. And when he asked the servant that was released to remember him, there seemed to be no answer.
Perhaps God was saying, “Joseph, am I not enough?”
Joseph eventually was delivered out of the prison because he was able to interpret Pharaoh’s dream. He was also appointed as a leader in Egypt, second in command to Pharaoh. God had not only given him dreams, but used them to save himself and the nation.
Apostle Paul explains that after he had asked the Lord to take away something that he was dealing with the Lord replied, ” My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is perfected in weakness,” (2 Corinthians 12:9 ) He had shared with the Philippians that he had learned to be content in any circumstance, whether he was full or hungry or had plenty or was in need. He learned that God is enough.
God’s power is perfected in weakness, in doubt, in the midst of unpleasant circumstances or straight up storms. It shines stronger and brighter against the darkness that is overwhelming us.
That rang true regarding the history of the song, “It is Well with my Soul”. Horatio Spafford wrote that song as he crossed the Atlantic in 1873. After stopping at the approximate location where his four children had drowned the words of that song swept into his heart. He had made things right in his heart in spite of his devastation.
“When peace like a river, atenndeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll:
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to know
It is well, it is well, with my soul.”
Horatio went on to complete great works for the Lord. He and his wife eventually had more children. He learned that God was indeed enough.
Matthew 6:8 states that God knows what we need even before we ask. He knows we are human and will face trials in this world. That is why Jesus said, ” Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrow. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33b NLT)
I trust Him. I don’t always trust myself, but I trust Him. I trust that he goes before me and knows what is best for me even when situations do not seem to dictate the same. He is leading me on the right path, where I need to be. He knows what is in my future and has promised, through His word, that He will never leave me.
The Lord is the great “I AM”. He is he beginning and the end. He is the bread of life, the living water. He is the shelter from the storm, my provider, my healer, my maker. He fights for me, believes in me, doesn’t condemn me and will never leave me. He is my hope, my strength, my peace. He sticks closer than a brother. He loves me unconditionally and went as far as to die a sinners death so I don’t have to. He ripped the keys of sin and death from satan and then rose from the dead so I can rise as well. He went to prepare a place for me so that where he is, I can eventually be too.
So ultimately, yes, YES–GOD IS ENOUGH!
He can and will see each of us through to the other side of ANY heartache, any misfortune, any tragedy, ANYTHING you or I are facing or will EVER face because HE will always be enough.